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novalwayshine 4/12/2023, 10:48AM

here @admin

Dreamclipse 4/12/2023, 10:48AM

10:49PM

I've deleted the msgs in that channel

Will 4/12/2023, 10:50AM

GUD

Dreamclipse 4/12/2023, 10:51AM

nova right now the role colors are wrong bro

novalwayshine 4/12/2023, 10:51AM

let me look at it

Dreamclipse 4/12/2023, 10:51AM

i'm thinking which color should i take

Will 4/12/2023, 10:52AM

let's upload some server emojis

novalwayshine 4/12/2023, 10:53AM

Will 4/15/2023, 8:33AM

let me test something

8:33AM

i think diskord has automatic time zone conversion

Will 4/15/2023, 8:43AM

@novalwayshine

8:43AM

can you replace the 21:30 with April 15, 2023 at 9:30 AM?

novalwayshine 4/15/2023, 8:43AM

April 15, 2023 at 9:30 AM

8:43AM

did you add any descriptor to it?

Will 4/15/2023, 8:44AM

it automatically adjusts the time zone according to where you are

8:44AM

i used a generator

8:44AM

give me a sec

8:44AM

8:30AM

8:45AM

replace 21:30 with <t: -2177404200:t>

8:45AM

just copy and paste it

novalwayshine 4/15/2023, 8:45AM

Will 4/15/2023, 8:45AM

this way the folks in the US don't need to do the time zone conversion

ItzFr0zeN 4/15/2023, 8:48AM

is it some sort of timestamp?

8:48AM

looks like html xml these stuff

novalwayshine 4/15/2023, 8:50AM

idk the first thing that came into my mind is <time>

8:50AM

but probably not

novalwayshine 4/18/2023, 12:07PM

alas, god knows how I've survived all these years

12:07PM

i'm nothing optimistic, it all boils down to the fact that im scared of death

12:07PM

under the pressure of work, gaokao, and my mom's unilateral output every single day, im just so sick of it.

12:12PM

almost every day at 23:45 the only thought that comes to mind is jumping off a building, and then i would take a 10-minute shower to digest that thought at lightspeed.

roymcniev 4/18/2023, 12:12PM

bro plz don't do that

novalwayshine 4/18/2023, 12:13PM

loool i won't kill myself

12:13PM

im not that weak

novalwayshine 4/18/2023, 12:33PM

tbh sometimes i really feel that my own life is a miracle.

when i was 4 or 5 i was diagnosed lung disease and they say that i could possible die at 11

when i was 12 i accidentally cracked my right foot and that still hurts sometimes today, but it made my left leg a lot stronger

my parents divorced when i was 14, don't rly wanna talk about that

when i was 15 i was kicked out of my original highschool, but fortunately i met a good group of friends and had a rly great time

at 17 my family suffered from financial situations (tbh i knew that it's not possible for me to go study abroad, and it's alright). i do want the story to have a good end

right now at 18 i dropped out of school (gap year) to work and prepare for gaokao, and we don't know how much more things will happen in the future

12:35PM

but my mental resilience is steady as ever. i decided to get back home early and sleep early from tomorrow, and try to get to the company before my mom wakes up the next day

12:37PM

these are some of my very truthful words and i'd like yall to keep it as a secret. not trying to sell me short... i'm not going to let myself die so easily, i haven't found a career yet that i'm fighting with everything i got. so don't worry about it.

roymcniev 4/18/2023, 1:05PM

one of the things that i think is happening to me very realistically is the worry about the future. it's still really because i don't know how far im going to get when i end up going down the road of education in the traditional sense of the word. sometimes i even envy you having a job/internship/whatever to do, not that i am bored right now, but at times i just can't really see the results of doing things. i seem to be so deep in a vortex that i know im swirling but i just don't know when to stop

1:08PM

i think i'm a very idealistic person, but my family don't really seem to understand that, so for a long time very few people will understand what i'm talking about/ what im into. i do stuff because of my passion instead of for money, but nowadays you gotta have money to do what you really want to do, so kinda contradictory here.

1:10PM

but after all, we are not living to question our selves constantly every single day and trying to seek for the meaning behind our behaviors. to me being happy every day is enough.

Will 4/18/2023, 7:29PM

Seems like we all have our troubles deep down...

Will 4/18/2023, 7:45PM

My dad is a very emotional person and he gets angry very easily. he tries to control every single aspect of my life, so we would argue every single time when we have a disagreement.
I don't want to get him mad, so i became pretty sensitive when it comes to emotions. I would try to figure out what other people may feel before saying anything. I tried to suppress the bad emotions down but sometimes when I'm all by myself, I would question am I really feeling good as it seems?
So I would express myself online and try to give my love to them. I would reach out to a "friend" that haven't been in touch for a long time. I would buy gifts for them when it's their birthdays. But besides friends irl nobody is treating me like that. I know it's not reasonable to put expectations on other people but I still want something.
Today I went to chat with my friend at a tea house to try to make him feel better. When I got back home on my bed feeling down, who is there to make me feel better?

roymcniev 4/18/2023, 8:33PM

i feel like we all have things that happened to us, and we might not feel comfortable to share every one of them to other people. But to me personally having some way of expressing myself makes me feel better

8:34PM

so you're helping your friend out by listening to what they want to say. if you don't mind, you can talk to me about yoru troubles too :)

Will 4/19/2023, 6:35AM

Thanks roy

6:35AM

I feel much better waking up today.